Fraud

I feel like a fraud. I don't understand how I ended up with so many conscience processes. It's like a continuous agony in my head. I am two different people in one and I cannot decide which one to kill. It might seem easy. Sometimes, I even thought I can balance them both but truth is that the differences between these to persons is like heaven and hell. dark and twisted or light and, well, untwisted. It's hard to try to maintain two people. And lately I even feel I might lose my sanity over this useless fight. So, bottom line ... after trying and trying ... it's high time. But how do I chose? Do I make a poll on Internet and let my significant others decide? It's a too important decision to let anyone else but me decide, and on the other hand... people should have to have a saying in who they like best. I am just kidding about the poll. The solution - it's something I have to figure it out on my own. Every single day I noticed how I am not suitable for this world. I mean I don't understand how did I end up having a set of values and principles that I do not respect? what can be worst than this? I find it very difficult to cope with this society. In the end someone will break ... and I don't see the society doing this. So, in order for me not to break I need to find a way of keeping my sanity and my principles and my values. There must be a way! I am sure of this! But who knows what is truly worth it. Right now all I know is that I am a fraud and I need to come clean ASAP. My true self deserves it!