duminică, 31 martie 2013

Happy - ness

Well this is a first. Me, writing about how happy and thankful I am. Because I am. Right now, precisely this moment here: I am a happy person. That person that doesn't lack anything: - I have the most amazing family (no matter the differences or the "small" quarrels every family has)! - My brother is getting married ... oddly enough that makes me happy knowing he is! - I have wonderful "old" friends that prove to me every single day that life is a better place just because they exist! - I have met recently some pretty interesting-young-full-of-life-innocent people that taught me once again that young is a state of mind (you must thing I am crazy talking like I were 80 ... probably I am - crazy i.e.)! - I am finally thankful for the choice I made regarding my future career. I know that plans change and maybe He has other roads to take me, but today - last day of March - I feel like professionally I can do what I dream to become! - I have succeed in buying (it might sound shallow, but hear me out) all the books in order for me to be ready for the exams ahead. Which, in my opinion, it is pretty awesome! I know that there might be other things and I do know that no positive things come in life without the negative, but, keeping in mind that this could be the quietness before the storm, this moment here is what I want to remember when the storm starts. Cas there is no other feeling like this one: happiness, thankfulness, joy, accomplishment! What else could I wish for?

marți, 19 martie 2013

Abdication

I was told this weekend (I'd have to admit, not as a surprise) that I give up on people too easyly! And it might be the truth, it makes no sense trying to deny it. But sometimes I am just tired to fix things that cannot necessarly be fixed or to hold on to poeple who have deceived me or betrayed me. I don't see any clear meaning in doing all that so, of course, I find it easier to give up. Bottom line is that at some point it's them or yourself. It's giving up on them or giving up on you. Because holding up to something beyond that acceptable line means that you'll have to alter your self. So, I would rather learn from mistakes and cut a fresh new start. Great people are always backed up. Great victories were obtained by people who had their back guarded. But also ... people hold us down. If we are in a relationship that cannot make us better I find it useless! Maybe I'm shallow. But I wish I had given up to some relations a lot faster than I originally did. By not giving up and holding up to those people alot longer than it was supposed I got myself some very unfixable scars. I know that living a monastic live it's not a solution, but neither the opposite. I don't know about you, but I have some people I wish I had never met them. But on the other hand, there's a handfull of people I couldn't live without! It's also true that sometimes, if you are willing to risk, you could meet some great brand new people. People that can teach you how to be young again, how you can change the way of thinking, how you can really trust others, how you can really have fun over a mid-month weekend... just like that! Trust me, I only talk from experience!In my case, I had to give up some people just to make room for some new faces!